Reflections

I've completely stopped writing. I can say a lot of things - i've been very busy, i don't have time to meet my basic needs (or so it seems), i haven't had anything significant happen nor have i done anything noteworthy.

reflecting on the past few years has been pretty entertaining. i'm on holiday. i've had some time to think.

i watch others, old friends i no longer talk to, old friends i keep in touch with, friends i which were next to me, people i once was in class with that i'd call acquaintances, etc. and i'm fascinated by how much their lives have changed. some have families. my life remains relatively static.

i can say nothing has happened. i'd probably be lying, but so it feels.

i am intrigued and comforted by the fact that no matter where you go everything is in essence the same. that's a comforting thought, now. it used to feel suffocating.

decisions paralyze me.

i hate to disappoint.

i'm a 100 girl.

proximity means so much.

I've convinced myself that I will lead a life of moral good, however best i can.

we're bound by routine and the older i get the crappier the routine is.
the fun of youth lies in spontaneity.

the foundation of any relationship is consistency.

i am bad at both.

ever since i started living alone i find that i spend the most of my time naked or just about.

i've decided to keep a journal. i miss writing. i need adventure.

i miss nicole. 

She got me into country and now i listen to it by myself. 

i'm currently listening to it. 

sad songs are my favorite. 

i'd go to a country concert, for sure. hahahahahah maybe this summer with her in the middle of potato land. hahahahahahhaahah

Todayyyyyy 

you keep brushing that hair back out of your eyes 

it just keeps falling and so do i 

I'm feeling like the luckiest man alive today 

i don't know about tomorrow 

but right now the whole world feels right 

and the memory of a day like today can get you through the rest of your life 

i know it won't always be like this 

life can change as quick as a kiss

it's not over yet 

and i already miss, today 

i don't know about tomorrow

but right now the whole world is right 

and the memory of a day like today can get you through the rest of your life 

and as the seasons change and time goes by 

when your hair is grey and so is mine

i know for sure that you're gonna be just as beautiful as you are to me todayyyyy 

bring on tomorrow, i got today 

bring on tomorrow i got today 

bring on tomorrow 

right now the whole world is right 

bring on tomorrow cause the memory of a day like today an get you through the rest of your life. 

i'll never settle down

that;'s what i always thought

i was that kind of man just ask anyone

i don't dance but here i am 

spinning you round and round in circles 

it aint my style but i don't care 

i'll do anything with you anywhere 

yeah you got me in the palm of your hand cause i don't dance 

loves never come my way 

i've never been this far 

cause you took these two left feet and waltzed away with my heart 

i don't dance but here i am 

spinning you round and round in circles 

it aint my style but i don't care 

i'll do anything with you anywhere 

yeah you got me in the palm of your hand, girl 

cause i don't dance 

i don't dance

i don't dance but here i am spinning you round and round in circles
it aint my style but i don't care
i'll do anything with you anywhere
i don't dance but here i am spinning you round and round in circles
it aint my style but i don't care
ill do anything with you anywhere
cause i don't dance.



THIS IS THE CUTEST SONG IN THE WORLD AND I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS
i'm not getting married unless i feel like this and believe that they do to. 

tell me that you love me
say we'll always work it out
i know it's kind of scary, but it's only temporary doubt

i've done a lot of stupid things but promise that you're gonna stay long enough to grow old with me
we're gonna see the good times, love each other through the bad

it's gonna hurt like hell when we lose our moms and dads
so let my shoulder hold your tears, walk beside me through the years
baby let's see where this love can lead

let's hold hands on your favorite beach
fix up a house that we found in the city limits
tangled up in a satin sheet
and get a little loud when we've had too much to drink
learn to love from a church pew
laugh about all the times we counted pennies
buy some land with a good view to start a family

baby, grow old with me.

it's gonna take a little time
we'll have to work at it everyday
we're gonna lose a lot of sleep and learn to eat out of a microwave
no, we'll probably never have it all, but that's part of building up the walls strong enough to stand up through the rain
we'll make some love on your favorite beach
add to the house that we found in the city limits
talk our babies through the bad dreams
when they get a little older we'll tell them not to drink
book a church when she finds a groom
laugh about all the times they counted pennies
give them land with a good view to start a family

baby you know we might take a turn down a bad road
maybe go where the wind blows baby
but end up right where we were meant to be
back and forth on a porch swing
hard not to smile thinking how it don't get much better
our baby's baby is turning 18
what a family
mmmm
baby, grow old with me
baby, grow old with me

baby, grow old with me

yeaahhhh

tell me that you love me say we'll always work it out.