Relevancy
Things are only relevant at the time. For instance, years ago that would have killed me, now it's just funny and entertaining. I can't begin to tell you the amount of things that have happened since then. So many things have gone differently than I imagined. I can say that I'm not as mentally stable as i thought and that i really shouldn't have gotten offended over it. i think it's funny because i should really refrain from keeping online journals just in "case" though i think i'm past that and can say that iw ill never become president, governor, or a supreme justice, so i don't really know what the relevance is. Also, my sexuality is fluid af. legit. more on that later.
i passed up several opportunities of being with women because i was in a relationship and a few times because i didn't like the person that way (read person as girl). There was one time when i was simply afraid to pursue that and couldn't understand why i was attracted to said person but not to the other. it turns out i am not attracted to men, at least not really, i'm not attracted to what makes man a man. or men as a concept - if that makes sense. i'm not into i'm tough af, i don't cry, i'm not a little bitch kind of men --- i'm attracted to men who are their own person and exist sort of outside of those constraints. For example, i love a man who can be like this is how i feel and is confident and funny a lot more than i am into a guy with abs and a nice butt. same for chicks.
i'm attracted to what makes people, people. And people who have depth. If you don't have any, don't talk to me. I consider you not to have much depth if all you are interested in is having a "nice" job, a "nice" house, a "nice" partner who makes a decent amount of money and has a decent job title. That all seems so superficial to me.
I get that money is important, but more important than money is living and being true to yourself. I would honestly prefer to scrape by than to be with someone because I HAVE to be or be doing something because i HAVE to. I'll update you on that later. We'll see how this all turns out.
i passed up several opportunities of being with women because i was in a relationship and a few times because i didn't like the person that way (read person as girl). There was one time when i was simply afraid to pursue that and couldn't understand why i was attracted to said person but not to the other. it turns out i am not attracted to men, at least not really, i'm not attracted to what makes man a man. or men as a concept - if that makes sense. i'm not into i'm tough af, i don't cry, i'm not a little bitch kind of men --- i'm attracted to men who are their own person and exist sort of outside of those constraints. For example, i love a man who can be like this is how i feel and is confident and funny a lot more than i am into a guy with abs and a nice butt. same for chicks.
i'm attracted to what makes people, people. And people who have depth. If you don't have any, don't talk to me. I consider you not to have much depth if all you are interested in is having a "nice" job, a "nice" house, a "nice" partner who makes a decent amount of money and has a decent job title. That all seems so superficial to me.
I get that money is important, but more important than money is living and being true to yourself. I would honestly prefer to scrape by than to be with someone because I HAVE to be or be doing something because i HAVE to. I'll update you on that later. We'll see how this all turns out.
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